The “world” is always killing Alison because the slaver family controlling who eats and gets employment wills it so. I have been abused my entire life from every direction and how can I ever get it to stop? I can see they are trying to leave me no escape but suicide but I cannot kill myself and hope to rejoin God. So I’m stuck here fighting and what does not kill me is making me stronger. Is that really what the R family wants right now?