I did wonder why he looked so miserable when the media kept telling me about how he had just married such a beautiful woman. None of that ever made any sense to me. It just all looked like a bunch of fakery but I couldn’t understand what was happening. The dark mood of the album The Delivery Man matched how I was feeling and I listened to it a great deal and I thought it might have something to do with my depression. This world was killing me and I had no clue what to do about it so I just kept trying different things hoping I could get something to finally work out. The “try this try that” approach to feeling boxed in from every side. Now here we are.