What’s been going on here since January has been shocking and bizarre even by our outrageous standards. I’ve had to face a lot of dark things about myself and my prejudice. There is no other word for it.
I have always had a vague sense that I was being held back by a hidden hand but of course that was paranoia, right? Looking back, I realize there is a good chance this was the case. When I finally did land a big media job, it was photographing celebrities. A job which required feeding into a well funded agenda of which I had already been highly suspicious. While the other photographers seemed thrilled to be in the room, I was a bit disgusted with myself but it was an enormous challenge and it was exciting.
I left that job feeling a million times more sour on what I call the “celebrity thing”. It was extremely fake. It was a bunch of sneaky ads, if you ask me. The celebrities seemed to be degraded by the publicists and the publicists could make my head spin with their entitlement.
I once had publicists in my house 11 o’clock at night stressing me out about some picture or other and they would not leave until they were finally satisfied with whatever it is that they wanted. The pressure that SOME threw at me really made me wonder why they were that stressed out. Who on earth were they working for that was making them behave in such a frankly insane manner?
This was my outlook going into this project. I was really fed up with the fakeness and this ominous influence on the horizon that I couldn’t quite put my finger on.
Back in the 90s, I used to be obsessed with Napoleon and Elvis Costello. Over time, I ended up throwing the latter into the “celebrity” basket and I really couldn’t see the person that is right there if I hadn’t stopped looking. This antipathy didn’t all happen on its own. There are hidden hands at work, I think, A LOT more than people realize or want to believe. It’s hard to spot a snake in the grass until it bites your leg.
Anyway, I finally started listening to his albums ONLY and I could hear he was having some sort of spiritual experience. I just couldn’t believe that I could really be on his radar. It turns out that he has supernatural gifts that are astonishing to me. The reason I have been able to cope and hopefully deal with my revulsions is that he understood my intentions and what was really motivating me.
Basically, we are on new ground which coincides perfectly with the current Jupiter/Neptune alignment in Pisces. I’m being more open than usual about the telepathy going on here because - though it sounds strange - it is real and it’s time for us to believe that we can do much more than we previously thought possible.
