MYSTIFYING. I was not listening because I was afraid to hear you lie and I would’ve found it devastating (and I was scared of hearing your justified anger - I WAS NOT FAIR TO YOU) and the chasm has been torturing me for a long time and it always looked so ridiculous on my end - especially to me. You have been much more courageous than I have been. I’m sure you already know all this. This is an abyss but I can almost see and hear and feel you again. How many tImes have we been through this? I wish it wasn’t so painful to others. I don’t know what to do about it either. I’ve been doing all this trying to get back to him. Now that I realize he’s here . . . Shocking.
Unwanted Number lyrics
You should hear the things that they say about me
They're saying "She's no better than she needed to be"
They don't know that he was kind and warm and tender
Soon he's gonna be another Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
How can I tell them?
How can I express?
How it felt to step out of this life and into his embrace
How can I tell them?
How can I explain?
All the love that I never had, I found in him
There may be a stain on the family name
And if my father was here I think I know who he'd blame
Mama says that he just doesn't care to remember
And all he thinks of me is another Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
What can she tell me?
What can I expect?
Of all the painful lessons that she learned she never earned respect
What can she tell me?
What can I believe?
That she really didn't hear me cry whenever he would leave?
There's a local game where they whisper my shame
They say "He gave her his child, he wouldn't give her his name"
They will torture me from January till September
And I will give my love to another Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
I will give my love to another Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
And I will give my love
And I will give my love
I will give my love to another Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
And I will give my love
And I will give my love
I will give my love to another Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number
Unwanted Number