My stream keeps going down but I keep putting it back up.

Does the fact that it’s so difficult to keep my stream up make it more or less interesting? How does it make you feel about the content that does stay up and gets pushed on you? The more my project is suppressed, the more I find myself closing my eyes and ears to content that is being forced to invade my awareness. I wonder if that’s happening to others as well. After all I’ve been through (having all these agents trying to trick me into trusting them), I feel I’ve had enough agendas pushed on me.